Things that make me feel healthy, mind body and soul…See, the thing about these lists is that they really make me think. What makes me feel healthy?
I feel healthy when I eat relatively normally. Don’t judge. There was a time in my life where I didn’t eat much at all. When I’m incredibly stressed out, it’s still a struggle some times.
I feel healthy when I exercise. I haven’t done enough of that this summer and that makes me sad. And also makes me feel lazy, which is the exact opposite of my real self.
I feel healthy when I can make choices for myself rather than allowing others to govern what I can do with my body.
I feel healthy when I’m educating myself, be that at school or just out in the world. I also feel healthy when I can educate others, through my actions, through teaching, or with my words.
I feel healthy when I write. It’s a purging of the mind of sorts.
I feel healthy when I am around people who challenge me.
I feel healthy when I am making my own decisions. I went for so long without this option. It’s still difficult for me; I can be horribly indecisive, and I still find myself turning to others for reassurance where I should be confident in myself alone.
I feel healthy when I am with those people who allow me to be myself.
I feel healthy when I can say the words, when I can articulate and admit my experiences. When I can’t, my soul is a bit black. Right now, it’s sort of gray.
Health is a weird thing for me. There’s so many components to it. And then there’s me, with all of the gray. Someday I will reach a point where I can care as much about myself as I do about others. I think I’ll know that I’m healthy when I am just being myself and I am completely okay with her, despite what others think. I don’t know that I’m there yet. I look forward to meeting her.